Day Six - just waiting to find out

Be gracious to me, O God, be gracious to me,

For my soul takes refuge in You;

And in the shadow of Your wings I will take refuge

Until destruction passes by. 

Psalm 57:1

Today was a cold and rainy day. I got up a bit late, and found Corey down stairs when I got there. We hung out together today. When the sun finally came out, Corey put the cushions on the chaises and we sat out in the garden until it got too cold, and we went inside. I read about nutrition, and Corey knit. We left the cushions outside, because Corey assured me that it wouldn't rain until 3:00. Mistake! A big fat rain came up very suddenly, and Corey had to rush out in the rain to bring in the quite wet cushions.

For lunch we made brown rice and a sort of cooked black bean salsa. It was really delicious. I'm finding that the idea of eating non wholesome food is quite repugnant. That stuff could kill me. For a snack, later on, I made a smoothie from organic skim milk, yogurt, cantaloupe, strawberries, and brewers yeast. It was quite tasty.

Mid-afternoon Dr. Larry, my chiropractor, called to see how I was doing, and to tell me that they are praying for me. That was so nice. He was very understanding and concerned. He and his wife are strong Christians.

Late in the afternoon we walked over to Whole Foods, via Irving Park, and I bought organic broccoli and organic kale and organic strawberries and organic yogurt. Then for dinner Riley and I had some brown rice, steamed broccoli, the black bean salsa, and a bit of tuna fish that Corey had mixed up. Now the tuna was certainly the weakest part of the meal, as albacore tuna is likely to have a trace of mercury and is lacking in omega3s because of the way it's processed. But I can't get all the meals perfect just yet. For dessert I had a small slice of cantaloupe.

I have been so much more relaxed without Emily. I love her dearly, and I really miss her, but I was not up to being able to take care of her at this time. But unfortunately my right breast looks like a black eye after that biopsy. But good news. I called my naturopathic physician, who had had blood tests done on me two weeks ago, so I could find out the results. He said everything was normal, except that I had high cholesterol, and he figured that my cancer prevention diet would take care of that. But even better, he had had me tested for inflammation, and he said that tested out well, which would indicate that the inflammation in my breast hadn't spread to other parts of my body. YES!

After dinner Riley and I watched a baseball game, and now we're going to bed. I didn't have too many panic attacks today. But I did have maybe a couple. What really plagues me is that I might die, or the might mutilate me. But that is probably what plagues all women with breast cancer. Aside from the fact that my right breast does hurt, after what they did to it, I feel pretty good. But I'm pretty nervous about hearing from the doctor tomorrow.

I will give thanks to You, O Lord, among the peoples;

I will sing praises to You among the nations. 

For Your lovingkindness is great to the heavens

And Your truth to the clouds. 

Be exalted above the heavens, O God;

Let Your glory be above all the earth.

Psalm 57:9-11